dinner with the family

i came back home late last night (thursday) after work and tuition at hougang.. reached back at like 10.30pm? then when i went into my room to dump my bag and remove my contacts and stuff i realised my little sister was still awake. her usual bedtime is like 9pm yah so obviously i kinda scolded her abit.

me: -in naggy tone- ah girl uh!! so late already leh still don't sleep!
her: i just came into the room only..
me: why so late then sleep!
her: just now i was doing my art project..
me: -in even more naggy tone- aiyohhh faster go sleep lah later mummy scold uh.

and then her next line kinda broke my heart.

her: dunno how many days i never see you already..

ahhh. there i was being naggy and scolding her and all she said was that she hasn't seen me for awhile. (seen me means we're both awake at the same time) it wasn't long actually. she last saw me on tues 9pm so that's 2 days only. but oh well didn't know she misses me. quite thankful she was still awake last night actually.. coz if not that would mean i haven't seen her for like 5 days straight coz the next time i'd see her will be like on sunday. mm guess as a child so young it must be quite sad coz both your sisters are like out everyday till late at night so you'd get abit lonely. i wonder if she's really sad about that actually. must really have more sister-bonding sessions while i'm here ahhh.

i feel so bad yah. it's like i don't get to see her for 9 months then even when i'm physically back in singapore for these 3 months i also don't get to see her often. especially the next few weeks yah coz i just started work so it's 8-6pm everyday then tuition at night coz that's like the only free time i have. these two weekends will be for sojourn yah. haha i guess that's like one reason why i started the 'have dinner at home at least 3 times a week' policy =p and to me that's kinda a valid reason for me to turn down meetings with friends? if i'm already going out a lot in that particular week then i'd rather push the meeting to another week so that i can at least have dinner at home. means quite a lot to me yah. so sorry to those i've inconvenienced =p

oh well! another reason why i wanna eat at home is coz my mum cooks yah. and she tends to cook alot haha. plus everyone eats at home also. i didn't spend my national day at home coz it was raining so i was stuck outside.. when i realised that everyone actually had dinner together at home on that day i felt so horrible =p i thought my dad and sis won't be going home for dinner that's why i thought it was sort of ok to eat out. but yah when i realised i was left out or more like i pangseh-ed them it just didn't feel good lorh.

must learn to cherish & treasure more time with my family! even though i seldom talk to both my sisters they are actually the first ones to cry (and make me cry) everytime i say goodbye at the airport. (rarr i'm starting to tear now also =p) haha now i draw up my whole timetable in advance so that i can minimise eating out & see my sister/family more often also. yupp for all those pple going overseas soon you should do the same too! treasure the times you have with them yah. even if you don't miss them it doesn't mean they don't miss you. so yup for now i'd just be looking forward to sunday when i can have dinner with them yay =)