thought-provoking evening

"are you waiting for him?"
"i dunno.."
"is he waiting for you?"
"i really dunno.."
"do you still think he's good for you?"
"well i haven't found anyone better.."

that was one of the nicest things i've heard in awhile actually. if you ask me i think that's a sign - a very obvious sign - of how good (perfect?) he was. but that's just my opinion yah. if i were you i'd probably do smth about it but i know.. circumstances are very different now. and difficult. times have changed. people have moved on. priorities have changed too. but whatever it is i just don't want you to have any regrets k? and whatever your choice in future i'd definitely support you! =)

"so when are you getting married?"

haha i was expecting that question actually. but it still came quite suddenly =p "i dunno three years? maybe by four years hopefully?" was the reply. i used to spend alot of time thinking about it. but there's so MANY things to consider that it's really very hard. there's like work money family HDB flat further studies etc. i guess u must settle all the extra stuff first before u can decide when u want to (or more like can) marry? but alternatively it can work the other way round too. at least that's probably how i used to (and still do?) see it. that once i know when i'm going to get married i'd have smth to work around and work towards. but oh well haha as we agree "it's not up to me to decide."

"going to do masters?"

another question to think about. haha once again i really dunno coz of all the other factors. like what if i have kids? in fact when do i intend to have kids? will my husband be working abroad? will my husband be doing further studies too? which i guess boils down to when am i getting married? =p i could always do it before marriage. which i would like to i guess. seeing how the existence of children will really make things difficult. but there's nothing for me to plan around! ideally i should go do masters around 2013 maybe? but i can't just decide "ok i wanna go do masters now." i can't just put everything else on hold.. can i?

you're right. there's so many things to think about! life's really not easy. i do have an aim in life. i just wish i had more support. and for someone to help me - to give me a better idea of how i can go about achieving it. after all i'm no longer living my life for myself only right?

ps. happy new year everyone =)