i'm damn sad.

random thoughts hmm. ever get the feeling where there's smth u really love or really like but you know you can't do it coz it's bad for you? i can't stand it yah. it can get very 心痛 one.. take earrings for example. haha those who know me relatively well might know that i'm a sucker for earrings =p as in seriously. haha some other people have like soft spots for shoes or bags etc but yah earrings are my weakness.. you can put me in a earring shop and i can spend hours there just looking around. if i had all the money in the world i'd get a million pairs of earrings lah. just think that earrings are so pretty =)

ahhh but the problem is i can't wear them much. i used to wear them like every single day (i've had earrings since i was seven? twelve years liao..) wherever i go yah. then dunno why like last year my ear started swelling liao.. i can still wear it when it swells yah haha and usually only after like maybe two weeks or so then it'll really hurt a lot then i'd remove it.. but after a few days/weeks then i'd put it back again.. probably scared that earhole will close (though considering it's been there for twelve years i dun think i have anything to worry about =p) uhhuh. then the same thing happens over and over again.. take out put back and so on. then so now i decide that maybe i should just leave it alone (without earrings) until it fully heals then i'd put the earrings back on.. but looking at how it is now haha i dun think it'll ever heal oh well. i dun even know what it is lah. but if someone tells me that i cannot wear earrings for the rest of my life i'd be damn sad. ah well. and this doesn't only apply to things mm. but life's like that lah right? some things u just gotta accept even if you don't want to.

apart from that i think i'm convinced that people aren't as good as i think. haha it's damn sad lah! i dunno. i think i must get used to the fact that not everyone appreciates you or what you do for them. k or more like even if people appreciate it they don't show it. i dunno. next time become a teacher sure got problem one.. ahh dunno is it that i'm feeling insecure or what. but seriously. sometimes i wonder if i'm this insignificant unimportant person who no one cares about.. and sometimes i can actually come close to convincing myself that it's true. mm i think i just think too much lah. really. just coz they dun do smth which you'd naturally do for them doesn't mean that you don't matter to them right? i think. haha i think i'm just being horribly picky also. small little thing also go and think until so far and so much =p haha oh well people are naturally different i guess. not trying to say bad stuff or anything but yah some are naturally more "nice" than others i guess? hmm. and i think i should be thankful that i've friends who are of the nicer type yah? thank you =)

mm dunno what's bugging me haha but whatever it is i've gotta get it out of my system and start doing my lab report soon =p and anyway for those back home guess what happened! it snowed in london =D just pity that i never saw it fall.. haha until now i've never seen snow falling yet hope one day i'd be able to =) mhmm haojun smsed me in the morning telling me not to wear slippers oh yah thanks uh haha felt quite happy reading ur sms.. always nice to know someone cares =) but anw yah i jumped out of bed (was late liao =p) and opened my window and mhmm it was so so so pretty =) pity my camera broke down.. but anw got a photo below courtesy of haojun. that's the view from his (about the same as mine) bedroom window anyway.. so pretty right? =)