last entry from london?

i dunno if anyone still reads this but let's just try to keep it alive k? (if you read it tag & say aye! =p) so yup 26th june marked the official end of the imperial college academic year 2009 ie the official end of my undergrad studies as a chemist in imperial college -sobs- =p time really flies yeah? still remember two years 9 months back i was off in a plane with KHD to london & we reached linstead hall at like 6am where i put on my bedsheets by myself for the first time in my life =p and look at me now! a grown-up individual who can cook a decent meal do her own laundry plan holidays overseas & complete her studies to get a BSc degree in chemistry heh.

haha i've still got about two weeks in london before i go back to singapore for good. i keep saying 'for good' but i know it probably won't be the case coz i'd definitely wanna pop down to london again someday. but yeah it won't be like the past few times when i'm back in singapore for only three months & mum will pamper me while i'm back =p i wonder if she'll realise that i'm back for a long long time this time. maybe she'd still think i'm only gonna be around for three months & cook all my favourite dishes and stuff again =D

i dunno what i should blog about actually. since this like the end of my time in london i guess i should be reflecting and stuff like that. i remember during the MOE orientation OBS trip before we left for london we were supposed to shout smth at the top of the height element. smth like what i wanna achieve by the end of the three years. still remember i shouted smth like "i wanna become more independent!"

haha i dunno if i achieved this actually. independence is such a.. vague term? like how would u consider someone independent. well now i know that i can survive alone without my mum being around & doing everything for me. maybe that's just what i wanted to achieve. to prove to myself that i can do stuff that my mum's been doing for me the past 19 years. haha but the ironic thing now is that after these three years are over it'll be back to the usual again. i'd be the lazy daughter who doesn't do housework & gets pampered by my mum =p when my family came to stay at my place in london a week ago that's exactly what happened. i found myself getting up everyday to a cup of tea/milo & breakfast readily prepared for me. haha it's not that i asked my mum to do it but i guess that's just how she is? she's been 'serving' the house for the past 12 years (when my sis was born) so it's probably a habit of hers now to make sure that we're all well-fed etc. it's touching i guess but maybe it just makes me feel abit bad now that i know i can easily do it myself.

really torn about going back to singapore actually. keep telling myself that i'll be back in december again to travel (norway!) & visit ziyang but there's so many other factors to consider. family holiday plans missing christmas (again) imperial exams money etc etc. so everything's like so unconfirmed that there's a chance that i won't be back here in dec after all. but we'll see. if we try our best to make things happen they should right?

don't really feel like blogging anymore. in the meantime i've still got two more holidays (lake district & cornwall) before i go back to singapore. the rest of the time will be spent packing & cleaning up the house & running last minute errands (like seeing more sights of london =p) before i leave. it will be a fruitful last two weeks i hope! oh yeah my family did come down to london to visit me so that in itself was a very very meaningful experience for me already =) so happy that it managed to come true. and oh yeah not to mention i'd probably be watching harry potter in london too! and also this year will be the first time ever that i celebrate my birthday without my family overseas. quite sad coz it'll be different but i guess at the same time i'd be able to celebrate it with friends in london =) take care everyone & in two more weeks i'd be home!